Friday, 9 August 2013

5 tahun 5 hari






Seketika kemudian suara Dawud Wharnsby Ali menyapa di telinga kanan . Will you hate me?

You smile in the two way mirror of my eyes .

I put on my faith like I wear a disguise .
You cant see my soul , see the life that I live .
But I show you the mask of the best I can give .
I've hid here, afraid, like a child behind .
The truth of the thoughts that clutter my mind .
What if you knew , about all that I do .
The things that I think... the me that is true .

Diri sendiri bingung kenapa dia menangis . Menangis untuk diri sendiri kerana wallow in self pity ? Atau menangis kerana cuba lari dari kenyataan ?


Would you call me a hypocrite ? Call me a liar ?

Would you curse out my name ?
Would you damn me to fire ?
Would you know what to say ?
Would you just walk away , afraid the me I've try to hide,
would too closely resemble the truth of you that lies inside ?

Atau menangis kerana tidak dapat memberi peluang pada diri sendiri untuk membuka ruang buat orang lain ?


I've been looking for answers since becoming adult ,

not looking for dogma to live like a cult ,
I've been looking to live, I've been living to find,
freedom from cages that limit my mind .

I've been running and hiking and dreaming of flying,

but falling and stumbling never shadowed my trying.
So now here I am before God and you ,
showing my face and my true self to you.
I'm not scared of God , I trust God understands .
but I'm wandering if you will still offer your hands .

Atau menangis sebab tak dapat nak memberi jawapan yang nak didengar . Apatah nak memberi jawapan , nak bersuara pun dah dipotong dulu .



Will I scare you ? Upset you ? Frustrate you ? Irrate you ?

Challege your lifestyle or weaken your trust ?
Or will you see my effort ? My passion ? Sincerity ?
Will you see just a little of yourself in me ?
Will you take off your mask so we can both be free ?

Sebab kenyataan yang melibatkan hati dan perasaan terasa baginya seolah sesuatu yang begitu menakutkan .



Would you call me a hypocrite ? Call me a liar ?

Would you curse out my name ?
Would you damn me to fire ?
Would you know what to say ?
Would you just walk away , afraid the me I've try to hide,
would too closely resemble the truth of you that lies inside ?


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